I haven’t realized that it’s been several months since I was last logged on. A lot has happened! I graduated from college (YAY), worked as a camp counselor this summer, and joined an amazing gym none other than the great CRUNCH! My eating habits have gotten better, with the exception of those cheat days once in a while. I love my new gym although I have not gone the past month due to an injury; sprained ankle. It’s been rough not being able to workout since I have been a lot more serious about my weight-loss journey this time around, I even got myself a personal trainer and she’s awesome to say the least. She helped me organize a weight training schedule along with cardio, which has been going well for me and I absolutely love weights and lifting. I feel stronger and better in my own skin although it’s going to take a lot more time for me to get where I want to be. I’m in it for the long haul and I’m looking forward to the roller coaster ride.
Six more weeks until graduation. Six more weeks until I can go home and strictly focus on losing weight and not be afraid of gaining it back, plus more. Being away at college has been so hard for me, especially my this year since it is my senior year and I’ve been extremely stressed out. There isn’t a day that passes where my weight doesn’t consume my every thought. This Friday was the most difficult; I weighed myself and I am living my worst nightmare of being 250 pounds. How did I let myself go like this? I don’t look or feel 250 pounds, but I do not feel good regardless of this fact. It breaks my heart to know that I am this heavy and have only been letting myself down. And to make matters worse, the number of jeans I own have been cutting down since they’ve been ripping or can’t fit into them anymore. My fat jeans that became my everyday jeans no longer exist since they ripped and my fatter jeans have taken their place. I just want to be small.
By the end of the year, I would like to be between 180-190 pounds.
So now I’m around 232-233 pounds! Also lost 3 inchs around my things, and inch around my stomach, and about half an inch around my waist and hips.